how sad...

i didn't think i'd cry over this manga because it's so light and subtle but then...
oh well T_T

as i thought it's really hard to fall in love with your best friend especially if you treat each other as siblings... but it's harder if you've fallen in love to a girl who fell in love with your older brother.

thing is, you like her for being simple and dense; for always being there playing games with you since way back when and she likes your older brother for the very same reasons... ouch!

she says you're special just like a brother... a family but your older brother is more than family to her.

you are always by her side all this time, loving her silently while she's loving your older brother while staying by your side.

you treasure every moment spent with her even though you're treating her like you don't know she's a girl such that it wouldn't be awkward for the both of you... and she wouldn't care you're a guy... then, more moments with her.

but then... she'll see you as her brother all the more.

she tells you, she's looking forward to your brother coming home and you put a strong facade, wearing your mask in silence, looking like you don't care... that you don't see the twinkle of excitement and anticipation in her eyes...

and you sigh inwardly because your heart starts hurting and you can't do much about it...
[nag-hug pa sa harap mo!!]

and then your older brother's fiancee comes along... and you see the sadness in her eyes as she tries to take it all in and still act normal.

you sure will be comforting her tomorrow while she cries her heart out... and you hug her while she cries over him.

see what a mess love is?

i cry for you ryuu! you're too good-looking for chizu anyway...

~wow, tagal ko na 'di nagblog kahit super daming time.
*ehemalmostwholedayarawarawonlineehem*

oh well. haven't slept yet :))