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Tuesday, April 27, 2010
badtrip-ness part 2


my mom is angry...

nagalit siya kasi ayaw ko makipag-usap sa tita ko nung birthday ni kuya...
ayoko nga kasi.
sa tingin niya walang galang yun pero umiiwas lang ako.
kapag kinausap ko yun baka lalo lang maging walang-modo or makipagplastikan ako...
ayoko ng namplaplastik...

oh well...
i'll say sorry mamaya.
fine. my fault. my bad.

still, i wouldn't change my views...
i still don't want to talk to her :P
but i love my mom so much i might try to be plastic once and for all.
hayy...

life is getting complicated yet again...
why can't the world of badtripness just leave me alone?

ends at 9:04 PM

badtrip-ness


badtrip kagabi si kuya.

when he came home yesterday night, he saw my sboard and the scooter.
there's this thing with him that he has to have a say in everything even if he doesn't have any direct connection with it.
he tries to give everyone his thoughts...

kaya nung makita niya yun bigla siyang nabad-trip

kapag badtrip si kuya karaniwan maraming sinasabi, nagsesermon and namumuna about the most random [and most absurd!] things.
pati yung mga things of the past inuungkat... basta kung ano lang maisip niya.

yung mga usual stuff na pinababayaan niya lang bigla niyang pupunahin.
pati sila mama pagbubuntunan niya ng galit...

he always tries to make people do this, do that out of whim kapag badtrip siya.
kapag medyo okay na siya, he would try to make it lighter by talking about trivial stuff like what he did...

and when he's badtrip, that's when i always look the worst.
i get blamed on a lot of stuff i know i didn't do.
kahit minsan coincidences lang i still get blamed
for the sake of his knowing the situation and coming to a conclusion.

from experience, i would try to reason out, but when things are really bad, i talk back sarcastically, that's what he hates the most.
getting riled up, he would yell at me and tell me i'm this, i'm that usually along the lines of me being stupid, irresponsible, careless, clumsy... just about every bad adjective in the dictionary.

and i would shut up, glare ahead and sulk. listening and rebuffing everything in my mind, i don't voice out whatever i'm thinking, i might as well take my life.

as always, when i'm badtrip, i'd cry...
from back when i was still a child, my brother would tell me to shut up and stop crying.
unlike before, i can now stifle my sobs but i can't hold back tears successfully yet... still learning that.

when, after sometime, he realizes that i'm telling the truth, that it wasn't me... he would shut up and try to be nice to me...
that's when i gloat and congratulate myself in my head.
he would never say sorry, he'll only give excuses...
and i'll gladly take them... sweet victory!!

for his pride, i shut up.
i'll give him that.


ends at 8:58 PM

yay!! thanks for all the good stuff :D

wahhh... super tagal kong hindi nag-blog... :))
sabi ko kapag marami akong free time, i'll try fixing this sad excuse of a blog to be decent enough...
at least sana hindi maging eyesore sa mga kawawang taong naliligaw at napapadpad dito...

but oh well, i guess...

even if i make this visually appealing (as if!!) crap pa rin yung laman :))

sorry na...
i wasn't born to write but i'm still messing with it.
sad, sad life...

anyways, i've been avoiding this blog for so long :))
kasi naman i feel like lalong kawawa 'tong blog na 'to kung magsusulat ako sa current state of mind ko na intoxicated sa super junior [donghae♥]

kapag mangyari 'yun grabe...
baka ipapatay na ako sa bias view ko sa SuJu...
baka puro praises na lang ilagay ko dito.

but come to think of it, a blog can have a specific topic...
mine can be about SuJu and their awesomeness!!

see, my kind of blabbing is bad.

anyways... so much for blogging today...
there are too many good stuff happening to me!

finally i'm a VolCat! (volunteer catechist)
well not yet official but i'm on my way to becoming one...
and i'm super happy!!
at least my last month of summer will be spent [hopefully] wisely :D
ilang beses ko na rin 'tong pinangarap and dinaydream and pinag-pray...
though i confess, i really don't like teaching...
i lose my patience way too easily T_T
oh well... basta malapit ng dream come true 'to ;)

another good thing would be: finally may sboard na ako :))
tagal ko ng sinabi 'to kay mama pero kala nila joke lang kasi pa-joke ko lang sinabi pero before pa lang i super wanted one...
nahihiya lang ako manghingi kasi i'm planning to ask money for a roadtrip [na parang wala ng chance matuloy] as grad gift...
ayoko kasing gumastos :))
another offer kasi nila is cellphone pero wala ayaw ko pa...
dunno why baka ma-addict na naman :))
and kanina 'pag uwi ko from my VolCath seminar sabi ni papa umalis daw si mama
and pagdating niya meron na akong sboard!!
hindi ko na tinanong bakit basta nagpasalamat lang ako...
i really wanted to try it right then pero mainit pa raw kaya hindi ako pinalabas
but whatever... masaya ako!!

ang sakit sa katawan na hinahanap ko andito na...
good thing pa rin ba 'tong macoconsider?
and sa pinsan ko yata yung scooter...

yeah hey!

oh and andaming may birthday sa'min sa april...
another one coming up!
oist, swimming na tayo!!

and reunion namin malapit na!! go pdmes2006 vi-i(more popularly known as jp rizal kasi ang section 1 from grade1-5 ay jp rizal)

sana hindi maubos ang masasayang nangyayari sa'kin...
hopefully buong summer ganito ka-lucky :D

yay... long post na random :D

hindi ko alam kung tama yung romanization pero:

donghae♥
~michidorok neol wonhago isseo [cheongmal eojjeol suga eobtna bwa] nawa gyuhrhonhaejullae?

ends at 3:53 AM

Thursday, April 1, 2010

okay i read the first story and well... not bad...
and gwapo nung mga guy characters sa series na 'to :D
hayyy... :))

ends at 3:36 PM

belated happy april fool's day...

erm... i haven't slept [yet again!!] :))
but it wasn't from reading a book... i was reading random fanfics and one-shot mangas... oh well.

i found another cute and super nakakakilig na one-shot (two actually)
the two stories are part of the series "akuma de koibito"

actually, the reason i started reading this series was because of the author's name: yuki shiraishi... ang cuuuuuutttteee ng name niya :))

although i didn't read the first story "devil and boyfriend" ('cause it's not one-shot :P and at the moment i'm drowning myself with one-shots, the type of story that doesn't need much patience or time [i don't always have both at the same time])

anyways, the second story is "that's the rabbit's forest" and the last is "because, it's love".

i know the last seems super cheesy and all from it's title but it's really cute and subtle lang siya, mind you!... i think, it's the better of the two.

*melts from too much kilig*

i like it short but sweet.
it's bitin most of the time, yes, pero super kilig pa rin :P

oh and i've been reading "kimi ni todoke"... it's the manga from my second to the last post... may anime rin siya... :D

winatch namin ni lc sa ada bahay part-ay... it's fun!
part 2 tayo... and i have good news about sa roadtrip :D

'yun lang
walang magawa :))

ends at 3:07 PM